Friday the 13th.  That's what it is today.  The day's barely getting started.  People are already going crazy.  Why?  Well, it just so happens that it's a pay day and it's a Friday.  It's hot outside, and there having some sort of potluck here at work, which I never participate in.  Shoot.  Dass just me.

It's the weekend!  What are you doing today?  Tonight?  Tomorrow?  Tomorrow night?  Everyone got their thing going on... who know's ?  I got a few invitations... I guess I get to choose... but I don't know.  We'll see how the day goes and what I'm in the mood for.  Probably NOT driving, but depending on the girl I see and location, I just might... if u kno wut I mean...

ttyl

"just can't get enough" is what I called it this weekend!

She couldn't get enough of my attention, and of my lipz dis weekend.

Who?  Someone new?  She's cute, nice smile, she's smart... I like the way she thinks.  She's different.  What attracted me to her is that she's mysterious.  And I'm Always up for a challenge.

I'll climb up into her head and her thoughts soon enough.  But if I don't, it's ok.  It'll be an experience in itself.

I'm learning more about the give and take.  Not just me giving and giving and giving.  I like the idea of it already.

She called me "conceited" after I told her.... "u just can't get enough, huh?".... lol.... but we both laughed it off.  There are things that you just can't hide, no matter how much you try.  So I told her, "but you like that, don't u?"  and she stayed quiet.  Silence often speaks louder!!... so we kept on mackin it... she wuz trying hard to not get all hot and bothered.... lol... but I know she did.  Whether she just wants some, or is actually enjoying it... we know it's the effect I have on her....

OH SHIT.... lol.....

Arite, it's Wednesday, July 28, 2004.  It was my grandmother's birthday, and I didn't call her yesterday.  BAD GRANDSON!!  It normally doesn't happen, so I'm going to call her a lil later this morning.

I went to the beach on Saturday, to clear my mind, relax and focus on studying on all weekend long.  I did.  I relaxed, it was cool, got in the cold water of Newport Beach.  It was cloudy, and I ended up BURNT, real bad.  Red as fuck!! Yesterday morning, after a few days had passed I woke up with itchyness on my arms, shoulders, and on my legs.  Basically the skin I exposed to the sun behind the clouds.  It was intolerable, and didn't know what to do and someone told me to get Aloe Vera... I did, and after a few minutes, it worked, thank GOD!  I never go to the beach here.  I didn't know it's worse when it's cloudy!!  But that explains a lot.

So my boss is on vacation, and my co-workers called in sick, making me the only one in the Billing/ Accounting Office, which meant I couldn't go take my Real Estate Exam.  Either it was my job ($) or the exam (-$--till I get my license)... I guess I have more time to study now, which is good.  The bad part is that I have to wait until September 11th.

So, I've been distant with everyone.  Remaining anti-social, and not in the mood to go out, spend money, and/or drive.  Focused on what I need to accomplish.  Had a lot of invitations to go here, and to go there.  Normally I never say no and go with at least one or two plans.  This time I said no to everything.  Tempted I was, but I remained poised and considered that I have to discipline myself in obtaining what I want.  No one's going to pass the exam for me... I can't have anyone study for me, and besides.. If I were to have gone anywhere, All I would've had on my mind is the Exam, so what's the use, right?

So as I remain anti-social, and just talkin to a select few who won't criticize, ask me why I'm so serious, and pressure me into doing anything, I come accross a few people who don't like that I've shaved my HEAD.  I don't give a fuck, but I realize how people can become ANNOYING.  So, some people are all like, "you need to grow your hair out."  I say sooner or later, but it's like what the fuck is the big deal?  Lemme lone!!

Not only that... a few people have told me "you've gained weight, I can tell it in your face."  I could care less... if anything I look in the mirror and I'm like.... dayum... is that me?  I know I look good, and I still got da ladiez crawlin........ lol...... many, many, many times...... but that's a whole oder story.  So I actually do want to tone up, and go to the gym and start eating healthy besides forming a "physical fitness" routine without the cardio/running part... but the more people tell me, the more I want to remain the way I AM!

One thing I say to myself and others is that everyone is so caught up with their damned selves, that you SWEAR they have time to look at you and criticize the hell out of u.  They're all worried about what other people think.  I refuse to live my life that way.  Other than that, the only one's critiquing are the one with clothes on, and fully clothed.  So obviously, they're hiding what they got.  Not only that, they feel better about themselves when they see Fat people on the beach..... Shit talkers.... they're everywhere....   Don't get me wrong, I'd talk shit too, but that's not the point here.  The point is that I'm comfortable with myself.  So people.... be comfortable with YOURSELVES... don't try to protray an image that you're not.

Alright, I'm out!

I PLEAD TEMPORARY INSANITY!!!

Dude, when it rains, it pours.  I wish it wuz raining outside cuz it's hot out derr.

Here's the drama in my life.... all at once...

1. California Department of Real Estate Exam on Monday which I need to continue studying for.  (shitting bricks, going nuts)

2. Court again tomorrow to ask for an extension on a ticket.  They want me to pay the ticket first, (after pleading NOT GUILTY), and If I win, get reimbursed... which I think is stoopit... no wonder people get FTA'S and FTP'S.  Who has the $ and who has the time? So I have to drive to Downtown L.A. in midday.

3. My company doesn't want to continue giving me time off, although I ALWAYS MAKE UP MY HOURS ! ! !   When I was hired, they said they were flexible, and da, da, da. This is what I get.

4. Perris...... oh Perris.... issues with Perris and the car.... Who knows what's to happen.

5. Parents, oh lovely parents............. wut can I say?  Drama, drama, drama.

6. Living situation.  I need space.... and there are 4 other people in the house.  I loved being in a hotel room with A/C all day long, and alone, or accompanied by chosen guests. ;)

7. $$$ is always an issue... and frequency of pay is also!! Need 2 find a part-time job in the mean time.... but no time right now cuz I'm studying.

8. My arm and hand is in pain, maybe carpel tunnel?  I wouldn't know, I still haven't received my benefits package from benefits at my company, and then I need to go to the doctor, take some tests and X-rays. $$$

9. Work is stressful because the boss is going on Vacation to Hawaii and wants everything perfect before she leaves... so we're all rushing..... which is no problem, cuz I'm up fo da challenge.

10.  Everyone wants time with me, and wants me to call them, and message them, and go visit them, and do shit for them, even go study with them, and do this, and do that....  This is when I see how much I give, and give, and how little I get in return.... Not FAIR!!! So things are about to change... oh well, everything changes!  Right?  Either for the good or bad.  But wut might be good for some people, might be bad for others.... So you can't live life trying to please others, because you'll never PLEASE THEM ALL ! ! ! !

So... I guess that's it.... It's not bad.... It's not much.... It can always be much worse..... so I am thankful that I have a roof over my head, clothing (though that's another thing I need to do.... laundry), food in my stomach... still weighing 215 LBS, and not working out yet cuz I have no time... and got an automobile, and the basic necessities.  I'm breathing!!  So, although still grateful......... TEMPORARILY INSANE IN THE FUCKEN MEMBRANE!!!

Does everyone enjoy my sarcasm?  I've mastered it quite well after meeting a few people, and once my insanity kicked in....... lol

All I can say, is Thank GOD for Music and the beach... the two most relaxing things, after sex............ but not that I've had any of that in a very LONG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it's funny how I'm NOT hinting that at anyone......... cuz there's no one!..... but mE!...... lol...... LATERS!

Hey, here's some comedy.....

I'm going to go DEFECATE now........ shit happens! ... LMAO

look it up in the dictionary if u don't know wut it means.... lol